IF THIS IS WHAT YOU WANTED THEN FIRE AT WILL

2006-07-29T21:43:00.000+08:00

my blog has been so inactive that it's gotten SPAMMED by some retarded unknowns.
hahhaha.
hi to whoever is reading this.
you obviously have no life cause you're reading JOANNE YEO'S blog,
which is famously known for being un-updated and in-active.
so'
have fun reading
:]

2006-06-08T21:17:00.000+08:00

WAS LOOKING AT FRIENDSTER AWHILE AGO
AND I MISS YOU
MISS US
AS FUCKED UP AS YOU ARE
I STILL MISS YOU
SOMEWHERE DEEP DOWN
AND I WISH YOU'D COME BACK
CAUSE I'D LOVE TO SEE YOU AGAIN
EVEN THOUGH WE DON'T EVEN TALK
WE DON'T EVEN SMILE
WE'RE AS GOOD AS STRANGERS
BUT I STILL WANT TO SEE YOU
CAUSE I RMB THE LITTLE BOY WHO USED TO PLAY WITH ME
NOT WHOEVER YOU ARE NOW
I RMB THE SMALL BOY WHO USED TO BE AFRAID OF THE DARK
WHO'D SCREAM HIS LUNGS OUT
LEAVE EVERYTHING FOR HIS MAID TO CLEAR
SCREAM HIS LUNGS OUT IN MY EAR
PLAY STUPID GAMES WITH ME
EVEN BARBIE DOLLS
AS LONG AS I PROMISED TO PLAY CARS WITH HIM
THE BOY WHO WAS AFRAID OF ESCALATORS
THE FIRST TIME HE SAW THEM
HE DIDN'T DARE TO SET FOOT ON THEM'
BUT PEOPLE CHANGE
AND YOU HAVE
I HAVEN'T SEEN YOU SMILE IN A LONG TIME
THEN AGAIN
YOU HAVEN'T SEEN ME SMILE IN A LONG TIME AS WELL
I MISS YOUR LAUGHTER
THAT HALF HYENA HALF GIRLY GIGGLE HALF CHUCKE
HALF EVERYTHING ELSE THAT JUST SOUNDS RIGHT
AND YOU'RE NVR GONNA SEE THIS
AND I HOPE YOU NEVER EVER DO

2006-06-07T14:22:00.000+08:00

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing
You were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs So sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calendar I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memories
And now every song reminds me
Of what used to be

and what could have been

2006-06-03T23:23:00.000+08:00

CHANGED BLOGSKIN
STILL LOVE DRACO MALFOY THOUGH

WENT TO SCH IN THE MORNING TO RETURN AN OVERLY OVERDUE LIBRARY BOOK
THEN KAI'S HOUSE TO PLAY XBOX
TOWN FOR LUNCH
STUPID BEEF NOODLES
TOA PAYOH FOR GRANDPA'S HOUSE
WHERE HE TRIED TO TEACH ME TO COOK FRIED RICE
DIDNT WORK OUT VERY WELL
THENN.
DINER WITH CHOO POH YEE AT PLAZA
AND
NOW IM HOME
IM SUCH A BORING PERSON : (

2006-04-01T15:14:00.000+08:00

CHANGED BLOG SONG
AS MUCH AS I LOVE THAT SONG
IT STILL SCARES SOME PEOPLE AWAY
ACQUIRED TASTE.
ANW

I'M UPDATING.
CP2 AND FUNGUS AND JIYAN.
AND I DONT KNOW WHO ELSE : )

2006-03-19T13:26:00.000+08:00

hi fungus
im finally updating as you wish
so you better tag you clapping clit :)
i love my clapping clit

yes frubby he does have gorgeous silver eyes
so sexy right

yes poh you i am your center of gravity, and like i said
that statement hence dubbs me as your TWIN APPLES
quite sick.
so its just between you and me : )
cause no one reads my blog
simply because i havent updated in weeks

2006-02-13T18:04:00.000+08:00

A JOE WHO'S BOUGHT A VIENNA BOYS CHOIR CD IS A HAPPY JOE
A HAPPY JOE IS A NICE JOE
A NICE JOE IS A JOE WHO'LL GIVE A RATS ASS ABOUT VALENTINE'S DAY JUST BECAUSE HER FRIENDS DO

2006-02-05T14:28:00.000+08:00

IF YOU WERE A DOG, WHAT BREED WOULD YOU BE?

GERMAN SHEPERD

you are serious, determined, and extremrly dependable. you are very protective of those who are close to you, which is rather few. you find it hard to let people into your comfort zone, and are always watchful and reserve among strangers. your soft side is only saved for those you love.

2006-02-02T20:38:00.000+08:00

bleeding all over your brand new rug
wont you join me
in this bloody masquerade
we'd lie here forever
just you and me
no one else

behind our masks
and glittering ensemble
beaneath the eyeshadow and mascara
no one would see my cold vacant eyes
nor the icy penetrating stare
so often displayed
the lifeless soul in a shell

void of emotion
void of tears
void of warmth
void of life
my hard exterior
the indifference
the coldness
all these a part of me

reach out to me
i beg you
please try
for me
entwine your hand in mine
let us dance in a moment of bliss
only between you and me
for this may be my very last breath

random on the spot rantings/poem
comment if you want to
since i didnt put much thought into it

2006-01-31T23:11:00.000+08:00

CHILDISH I KNOW
BUT I COULDNT RESIST
: )

2006-01-30T20:31:00.000+08:00

lost and broken
hopeless and lonely
smiling on the outside
hurt beneath my skin

my eyes are fading
my soul is bleeding
i try to make it seem okay
but my faith is wearing thin

i hate my country.
im glad im not in some third world country or smth
and i love my friends
but i wonder WHY THE HELL did God decide to place me here
i hate the education system
i hate my life
i hate the weather
i hate the concrete
i want out.
out to aus.
london.

some ppl are lucky
they get sent to aus to study, all they have to say is "daddy i want to go australia to study, cause i dont wanna sit for my o's"
off they go.
one by one.
everyone's leaving
causing twice as much pain
to see the ones you love leaving forever,
and leaving to where you want to go so badly
and knowing that some of them are being forced to go

those who want to go cant go until they're so old they might as well die on the way there.

i only wanted a magazine
i only wanted a movie screen
i only wanted a life i'd read about and dreamed

so many have left
some are pending
some are leaving soon
loved ones.
childhood friends
childhood sweethearts.

im going to rant. so if you dont wanna hear me rant. just go somewhere else: ) im fine with it
trying to love all of you is getting so hard id rather not love at all.
just pack me up and send me to australia.
anw.
as much as i hated my family
trying to love them with thoughts of " ill never get back these moments we have" and" this might be the last time four of us will be sitting down for dinner outdoors" isnt working.
you try and you try and you try, but it just turns ard and bite you.
ARGH I HATE THIS.
anw.
i thought i wouldnt have to pretend anymore.
that i could really love you all.
but it just didnt work
all three of you.
blah blah blah.
you can go have your happy little family.
i dont give a shit.
i cant even go out for dinner with my friends.
i know your tone.
dont lie
you dont like her.
wel guess what.
WE DONT LIKE YOU EITHER
and nothing you do will ever make me turn my back on my friends,
i dont care that you dont like them cause they're lesbians, or they're"punky" as you call them.
i dont care that you think they're influencing me to be some shit ass "punk kid" CAUSE THEY'RE NOT, AND BECAUSE I AM NOT SOME EFFING PUNK KID. ASSHOLE.
wearing accessories doesnt make me a PUNK KID. jsut like wearing stilettos doesnt make you a HOOKER. asshsolehoslasldkjflsoaoshooelassholehoassshoeholasohelhohaos.
AFTER MY SEC FOURRRR
I AM GOING TO LEARN THE VIOLIN WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT.
BECAUASE! I WILL NOT LET YOUR BLOOMING OPINION STAND IN THE WAY OF MY DREAMS.
IM NOT DONE RANTING.
BUT IM GONNA STOP RANTING, CAUSE I CAN RANT FOREVER.
SO I SHALL JUST GO BACK TO PRETENDING TO BE HAPPY, SO THAT ALL OUR LIVES WILL BE EASIER.
EVER HEARD OF A SPRING?
HAAHA/ IM A SPRING.
DEAL WITH IT.[
HOPEFULLY YOU'RE INTELLECTUAL ENOUGH TO UNDERSTAND WHAT IM TALKING ABT. AND THT I DO NOT LITERALLY MEAN I AM SOME FUCKING SPRING.

2006-01-01T14:19:00.000+08:00

____YOUR LIFE____
[x] they call me:joe
[x] also: joanne
[x] sex: female
[x] my first breath of air: twenty fourth july one nine nine oh
[x] age: 15
[x] occupation: student

____PLAY____
[x] feeling: nothing
[x] Listening: missing by evanescence
[x] Talking: lenus online
[x] doing: this thing
[x] craving: nothing at the moment
[x] thinking of: nothing
[x] hating: no one

____LOVE?____
[x] love is: an angel behing a bitchy mask, it takes time to get to the angel
[x] first love: do girls count?
[x] current love: not sure
[x] love or lust?: love, but lust is fun
[x] best love song:look what i've done by chris cagle
[x] is it possible to be in love with more than one person at the same time?:yes
[x] when love hurts you, you: do not cry
[x] true or false - all you need is love: false
[x] have you ever been in love?: yeah
[x] is there such thing as love at first sight?:yeah

____THE OPPOSITE SEX____
[x] turn ons:looks, strut, dressing, ALL GUYS SHOULD HAVE FLAT BUTTS. guys with nice butts just make girls feel insecure about their own asses, however nice they may be
[x] turn offs:disgusting table manners. "loser" faces
[x] does your parents' opinion on your bf/gf matter to you?: no
[x] what kinda hair style?: no gel, no bowl cut, no baldness, no mohawk
[x] the sweetest thing a member of the opposite sex can do for you?: depends who
[x] where do you go to meet new people?:anywhere
[x] are you the type of person to holler n ask for numbers?: fuck no

____PICKY PICKY____
[x] dog or cat: dog
[x] short or long hair:short at the top, long at the bottom. call me an ahlian
[x] innie or outie: ??
[x] sunshine or rain: rain, but i prefer snow
[x] moon or sun: moon
[x] basketball or football: horse riding? basketball
[x] righty or lefty: right
[x] hugs or kisses: hugs
[x] 1 best friend or 10 acquaintances: best friend
[x] bf/gf or best friend: best friend
[x] tv or radio: depends on whats on
[x] starbucks or jamba juice: starbucks
[x] mc donalds or burger king: burger king
[x] summer or winter: summer
[x] written letters or e-mails:letters
[x] playstation or nintendo: whatsthediff -_-
[x] disney or nickelodeon: id rather stone
[x] car or motorcycle: harley bike, racing car, no weird cars, and no mr soh's kinda bike
[x] house party or club: club
[x] sing or dance: dance
[x] freak or slow dance: dance
[x] yahoo messenger or aim: msn
[x] google or ask jeeves?: google

____MISCELLANEOUS____
[x] can you swim?:yeah
[x] whats your most embarrassingmoment?: many
[x] what are you scared of?: roaches, insects
[x] what is your greatest accomplishment?: cant think of any
[x] what kinda roof is over your head?: literally or metaphorically? cement and a bad one
[x] do you like tomatoes?: raw ones once in awhile. CHERRY kinds are the best
[x] how many TVs in the house?: two
[x] how many phones?: six hps one house phone, a few lost ones here and there
[x] how many residents?: four
[x] how many DVDs do you have?: too many
[x] last dentist visit: somewhere last year
[x] last doctor visit: somewhere last year
[x] last phone call: cant rmb, less thn an hour ago

2005-12-30T12:28:00.001+08:00

I saw it in her eyes
When I was sayin' goodbye
That girl, she aint gonna be alright
'Cause I could tell
She'd be goin' thru a livin' hell
And I, I wouldnt be there by her side
Lord, I felt so bad
As I sat and watched her cry
Thinkin' I was movin' on
And she was barely gettin' by.

Look at what I've done to her
Look at how I made her feel
I gave back her heart
The broken parts
She got the raw end of the deal
And look at whats it's done to me
Gotta know it tears me up
I gave it everything I had
And Lord, it wasn't enough
Hurtin' her like this seems so wrong
Look at what I've done to her
Now she's alone.

I saw her out last night
She was havin' a good time
That girl
It looks like she's doin' fine
But then I saw a man
Walk up and take her by the hand
And I, oh God, I almost died
And then it hit me
She didn't really need me
I just sat there for a while
Until I finally smiled.

Yeah, look at what I've done to her
Look at how I made her feel
She's found somebody new
And look who took the time to heal
And look at what it's done to me
Ya gotta know it tears me up
To walk away from the love we made
And just leave it in a cloud of dust
And now it's got me thinkin'
Maybe I was wrong
After all the things I've done to her
Now she's strong.

I walked up and said, ''Hello.''
She said, ''It's good to see ya,
But hey, I gotta go.''
Yeah, look at what I've done to her
Look at how I made her feel
She's standin' tall
Shes got it all
Got the world at her heels

And look at what it's done to me
Yea look at how it makes me hurt
If I could go back now I swear somehow
I'd find a way to make it work
Ain't life funny
Now I'm the one alone
Yea look at what I've done to me
Shes gone.

2005-12-30T12:28:00.000+08:00

2005-12-30T00:43:00.000+08:00

go take a listen to canon in d by the Vienna Boys' Choir

2005-12-25T01:55:00.000+08:00

Saw a man in the movies that didn't have a heart
How I wish I could give him mine
Then I wouldn't have to feel it breaking all apart
And this emptiness inside would suit me fine.

It's times like these I wish I were a tin man
You could hurt me all you wanted and I'd never even know
I'd give anything just to be the tin man
And I wouldn't have a heart and I wouldn't need a soul.

I couldn't see your leavin' comin'
You took me by surprise
Even now it still seems like a dream
But I know I can't be dreamin'
'Cause as I lay down each nighT
The pain so great that it won't let me sleep.

It's times like these I wish I were a tin man
You could hurt me all you wanted and I'd never even know
I'd give anything just to be the tin man
And I wouldn't have a heart and I wouldn't need a soul.

Well, I'd give anything just to be the tin man
And I wouldn't have a heart and I wouldn't miss you so...

2005-12-25T00:37:00.000+08:00

falling in love with you all over again.
but its too late

2005-12-22T15:22:00.000+08:00

PLEASE, DON'T GO

2005-12-22T09:39:00.000+08:00

CHRISTMAS IS COMING
IM SAD
HAHAHHHA
MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE

WHATS MEANT TO BE YOURS WILL BE YOURS
NO MATTER HOW HARD PEOPLE TRY TO TAKE IT AWAY FROM YOU'
OR HOW FAR AWAY IT SEEMS
ITS ALWAYS WORTH WAITING FOR

2005-12-18T03:58:00.000+08:00

2005-12-15T00:55:00.002+08:00

songs have this uncanny way of depicting exactly how you feel at some particular moment in your life, or just, simply how you've felt and how you feel.

She walks to school with the lunch she packed
Nobody knows what she's holdin' back
Wearin' the same dress she wore yesterday
She hides the bruises with linen and lace, oh

The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask
It's hard to see the pain behind the mask
Bearing the burden of a secret storm
Sometimes she wishes she was never born

Through the wind and the rain
She stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where she's loved
Concrete angel

Somebody cries in the middle of the night
The neighbors hear, but they turn out the lights
A fragile soul, caught in the hands of fate
When morning comes it'll be too late
Through the wind and the rain
She stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where she's loved
Concrete angel

A statue stands in a shaded place
An angel girl with an upturned face
A name is written on a polished rock
Abroken heart that the world forgot

Through the wind and the rain
She stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where she's loved
Concrete angel

2005-12-15T00:55:00.001+08:00

2005-12-15T00:55:00.000+08:00

2005-12-10T18:24:00.000+08:00

fucking bitch
if you dont like her just say so
dont pretend you do
cause we both know you dont
just stay the fuck out of my life
and room
if you like my room that much, wait for about four more years
after that
you'll have my ENTIRE room to yourself
with the furniture and everything

2005-12-10T00:49:00.000+08:00

DRACO MALFOY
WITH THAT SEXY SMIRK AND SILVER EYES
THE HOTTEST THING TO EVER WALK THE PLANET

HAHAHAH. SEX DEPRIVED PRICK.

2005-12-06T21:51:00.000+08:00

never in my entire life have i ever felt so empty
i've felt empty before
this is an emptiness that cant be described
it just bores a hole right through your heart
numbs your pain
your anger
your hate
loneliness
confusion
sadness
it numbs your tears
it numbs you

2005-12-05T15:09:00.000+08:00

tom felton : )
hahhaa. so handsomeeee : ) : )
anw. gg for dinner later.
father's birthday today.
eugh.
bye world

2005-12-03T20:27:00.000+08:00

for all you guys reading this.
you wont get to see me next year cause my head would've been presumably "chopped off" by lenus choo
anw.
ya'll know those playgrounds with the metal plates as platforms that have holes in them?
sorta like grater like thingys
anw.
me and lenus choo the graceful were on one of those playgrds,
and just as we were abt to step off and step down onto the ladder, i told her "dont get your nipple heel stuck in one of those".
she, being ever confident and graceful, replied with " hoi, im not tt lousy one okay"
so , our graceful long legged lenus places one foot on the top rung of the ladder, and embarks on placing her other foot onto the ladder, however, she somehow got stuck and sorta, fell off.
hahha: )
because her lil nipple heelie got stuck in a hole.
okay.
byebye.
im gnna be so dead : )
but what would the world be without humour?
i do much more stupid stuffs.
: ) : ) : )

2005-12-02T22:06:00.000+08:00

i hate you
you love me
i dont give a fuck about you
with a stomp stomp stomp
and joanne out the door
say byebye to joanne yeo
: )

i should be a poet.
ha.
this isnt teen angst.
so stop saying it is
before i make you
stuff your fist up your crack.

2005-12-02T12:16:00.000+08:00

today is a boring boring day : )
i' m bored
piano teachers coming in about fifteen minutes.
im rotting
i havent done any homework
i havent studied
everytime i sit down to study
i just get turned off by the books.
nt tt i ever got turned on by books before.
i hate chemistry.
:(
hahha.
gonna go swimming tmr again.
then you all can see my wonderful colour tone when sch reopens
i have brown limbs and a white body.
-_-
rlly nth else to blog abt : )
love ya'll

2005-11-28T21:20:00.000+08:00

dont whine.
its disgusting.
so ignore my old post.
read this post NOWNOWNOW
; )
its a HAPPY LITTLE POST
haahhah.
a post full of laughter : )
hahahha.
by a happy little giant.
OXYMORON
LITTLE GIANT

2005-11-28T20:31:00.000+08:00

2005-11-24T16:54:00.000+08:00

was dragged out by lenus choo in the early afternoon to my old house to buy stuff.
crazy woman.
aft tt i went to plaza to pass the stuff to srn tan.
kc SPIDER.
ate my KE KOU WEI chicken HAHAH.
finally.
decided not to buy my shoe. YET.
but i want it badly.
hahahhah.
walked ard, went outside to buy INDIAN RUBBISH at the taxi stand.
went home.
then i went to meet LENUS CHOO at her ah ma house's market.
so far away.
just to buy hair dye for her PO PO
who is so HAPPENING. HAHAH
i want to sleep.
my fingers smell funny.
act not tt funny, they just smell bad

2005-11-22T17:37:00.000+08:00

been a long time since i blogged about my day.
so i've kinda lost touch
but who cares : ) : )
anw.

MONDAY :
went to watch harry potter in town with the retards.
HARRY POTTER IS GOOD
every single movie / book is good.
i could survive on it.
fleur is gorgeous.
cho chang's act quite pretty .
hahah.
who ever said she was ugly anw.

TODAY :
met my mother in novena for lunch and to buy stuff.
not bad. thought three quarter of the time was spent looking ard for her stuff.
crazy.
and she didnt trust me when i said casting crowns was a christian band.
even though she read the lyrics
and heard the song
and we were in TRUMPET PRAISE.
crazy woman.
she kept saying we had to "ask daddy"
wth.
managed to buy a top though i couldnt find my off shoulder.
i think off shoulders are impossible to find nowadays
went to QOO.G
tried looking ard but i got freaked out by the weird cheena salesgirl with a speech defect and who kept plucking out diff stuff for me to see, stuff which were so bloody lian and ugly. and she spoke to me, rather she MUMBLED AND BLABBERED to me in chinese. of which i dont understand, though i'm pure chinese.and even thoughi kept telling her i'll look ard myself.
FREAKY.
gonna go plaza ONE DAYq to eat my FRIED CHICKEN WITH CHILLI AND MSG and to by=uy my shoes.
HAHAHAHAH.

2005-11-22T00:23:00.000+08:00

HEY ALL
SOME IDIOT HAS BEEN CLAMOURING FOR ME TO GET A NEW LAYOUT
SO HERE IT IS
HOPE YA'LL LIKE IT
AND MY PAST ISNT THAT BLACK
SO YEA
ITS JUST NOT THAT WHITE AS I WOULD LIKE IT TO BE
BUT EVERYONE HAS A PAST
HOW BLACK IS YOURS?

2005-11-21T18:35:00.000+08:00

She put him out
Like the burnin' end of a midnight cigarette
She broke his heart
He spent his whole life tryin' to forget
We watched him drink his pain away
A little at a time
But he never could get drunk enough
To get her off his mind

Until the night.
He put that bottle to his head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away her memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength he had to get up off his knees
We found him with his face down in the pillow
With a note that said, I'll love her till I die
And when we buried him beneath the willow
The angels sang a whiskey lullaby.

La la la la la la laLa la la la la la la.
La la la la la la laLa la la la la la la.

The rumors flew
But nobody knew how much she blamed herself
For years and years
She tried to hide the whiskey on her breath
She finally drank her pain away
A little at a time
But she never could get drunk enough
To get him off her mind
Until the night.

She put that bottle to her head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away his memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength she had to get up off her knees
We found her with her face down in the pillow
Clingin to his picture for dear life
We laid her next to him beneath the willow
While angels sang a whiskey lullaby.

2005-11-17T14:26:00.000+08:00

There's something I’ve got to say
You’re always with me even though you’re far away
Talking to you on my cell
Just the sound of your voice
Makes my heart melt oh girl Well it's true

I’m all about you
’m all about us
No baby you never have to question my love
And every night there's a new crowd
But it’s always you I’m singing about
There is only one these words are going out to
Oh girl, I’m all about you

I know you worry sometimes (sometimes you worry)
Some other girl will make me forget your mine
There’s not a doubt in this world
That any one could take the place of my number one girl
But it's true Chorus
When I close my eyes I can see you
It’s like you’re right here
And this feelings only getting stronger
You’re with me everywhere

2005-11-12T13:14:00.000+08:00

i didnt go that day
why didnt you tell me
that would be my last chance to see you?
to hear your voice on the phone?
the very last time.
if only someone had told me
if only i had gone
but there's no point in talking about if onlys
you're gone now,
and that's all that matters.
why did you leave us behind?

2005-11-09T21:35:00.000+08:00

Darling are your feeling
the same thing that I'm seeing?
The troubles of the day,
took my breath away.
Took my breath away.

Now you're no longer talking
And I'm no longing hearing
There's nothing left to say
Said it anyway
Said it anyway

And I want you not
I need you not
I'm dying 'cause this is the saddest song I've got
The saddest song I've got
Darling are you healing

from all those scars appearing?
And don't it hurt a lot?
Don't know how to stop.
Don't know how it stops.

Now there's no sense in seeing
the colors of the morning.
Can't hold the clouds at bay
Chase them all away
Chase them all away

And I'm frozen still
Unspoken still
Hearts broken
Remembering something I forgot
Something I forgot

2005-11-08T20:56:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHAH.
DIDNT GO SCHOOL TODAY.

2005-11-04T17:29:00.000+08:00

i miss all of you.
every single one.
please fill this hole in my life.
without you all.
my life is aimless

____________________

falling in love with you is disgusting
i dont want to
please don't let me.

2005-11-02T18:53:00.000+08:00

which will hurt you more?
waking up to find me gone and my cupboards empty?
or watching as i walk out the door without looking back,
leaving you to regret what you did,
and realise how wrong you were?
whatever it is MUMMY, and DADDY , DEAREST.
don't think you know everything about me or my life.
you will flip.
so shut the fuck up and fuck off.
honestly, i dont need nor want your love,
your hugs,
your kisses.
and all your nonsense.
the only reason i'm still here is because you're my source of INCOME
count your blessings while you can
you're only left with five years.
it's wrong to curse our parents, and we should HONOUR them.
if you teach me that crap,
and don't practice what you preach,
or do daily bible readings and talk about holiness.
the history of prominent people in the bible,
all your blabber on how you know everything.
it adds up to nothing,
when you shoot yourself and say you're being unreasonable.
honestly then DADDY,
tell me,
whats the point of teaching us all the things from the Bible?
since you always want us to BE LIKE JESUS
was JESUS unreasonable?vulgar?violent?
I DON'T THINK SO.
fuck out.

2005-11-01T18:18:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry
i let you down
i promise
i'll never do it again
help me to keep it
please
promises are never meant to be broken
you never broke yours
and you never will

2005-10-30T11:51:00.000+08:00

what are you playing at?

2005-10-21T20:47:00.000+08:00

i knew deep in me that you would let Him down
and you did.
as much as i hoped you wouldn't.
if it really came to such a point.
my disappointment doesn't matter to you.
for you only have one thing on your mind.
above everything else.
i know love is blind.
you just showed me how blind it really is.

2005-10-21T14:21:00.000+08:00

GREETINGS TO ALL. im yes, NOT JOANNE. HAHAHA IM RACHELKOHSHIYI [[:

HELLO JOANNE. if you're reading this, i just wanna say. I CHANGED THE SONG. the previous one was boring! [: this is BETTER. and you wanted this anyways! [:

OKAY OKAY? double okay la. HAHAHAHA okay BYEBYE. I DIDNT GO TO SCHOOL SO IM VERY FREE. if there's anything wrong, TELL ME AGAIN [:

BYEBYE [:

2005-10-16T19:47:00.000+08:00

i dont know how you do what you do
im so in love with you
it just keeps getting better
i wanna spend the rest of my life
with you by my side
forever and ever
every little thing that you do
baby im amazed by you

2005-10-11T20:32:00.000+08:00

fuck all you did.
it doesnt mean anything.
not anymore.
i was a fool.

2005-10-09T13:59:00.000+08:00

TODAY IS SUNDAY. HAHHAH.
II'M GOING TO FAIL FAIL FAIL.
SCREWED.
HAMSTER DANCE.
STOP CRYING YOUR HEART OUT.

2005-09-25T20:22:00.000+08:00

i will be right here waiting for you

2005-09-24T00:11:00.000+08:00

Johnny's daddy was takin him fishing
When he was eight years old.
A little girl came through the front gate
Holdin a fishing pole
His dad looked down and smiled
Said we can't leave her behind
Son I know you don't want her to go
But someday you'll change your mind
And Johnny said
Take Jimmy Johnson
Take Tommy Thompson
Take my best friend Bo
Take anybody that you want as
Long as she don't go
Take any boy in the world
Daddy please- don't take the girl
Same old boy

Same sweet girl
Ten years down the road
He held her tight and kissed her lips in
Front of the picture show
Stranger came and pulled a gun
Grabbed her by the arm
Said if you do what I tell you to do
There won't be any harm
And Johnny said
Take my money
Take my wallet
Take my credit cards
Here's the watch that my grandpa gave me
Here's the key to my car
Mister give it a whirl
But please-don't take the girl
Same old boy

Same sweet girl
Five years down the road
There's gonna be a little one
And she says it's time to go
Doctor says the baby's fine
But you'll have to leave
Cause his momma's fading fast
And Johnny hit his knees
And there he prayed
Take the very breath you gave me
Take the heart from my chest
I'll gladly take her place
If you'll let me
Make this my last request
Take me out of this world
God please-don't take the girl
Johnny's daddy was taking him fishing
When he was eight years old...

2005-09-17T23:09:00.000+08:00

SORRY.

ALL OF THE STARS ARE FADING AWAY
JUST TRY NOT TO WORRY
YOU'LL SEE THEM SOME DAY
JUST TAKE WHAT YOU NEED
AND BE ON YOUR WAY
AND STOP CRYING YOUR HEART OUT

2005-09-16T16:44:00.000+08:00

MAKE -HER(-HER) A BETTER PERSON
I DON'T WANT -ME(-ME)
TO CONTINUE WITH THIS ANGER
THE PAIN IS TOO -LITTLE(-LITTLE)
I'M MISSING -ME(-ME)
TOO -LITTLE(-LITTLE)

2005-09-12T20:20:00.000+08:00

I MISS YOU
PLEASE SAY YOU MISS ME TOO

2005-09-11T17:36:00.000+08:00

Blackness like a blanket
engulfs me
From which i find no escape
Beside a sea of dead tears
Watching crimson trails down my hand
The sounds of Hell sound in my ears
Screams of the living dead
The air is icy cold
Everything is dead
My breath turns to smoke
As i wait for Death's cold embrace

I AM PROUD OF MYSELF FOR WRITING THIS : )
EGO PIG.

2005-09-09T15:36:00.000+08:00

Death, you are my sweet love,
come and give me your cold embrace...
Wrap your icy arms around me,
hold me, kiss me till I die...
Let me feel your cold touch,
feel you, feel death of my flesh...
Release my soul from this agony,
give me freedom, let me die...
© 2001 - 2005 by Mika Kopsa aka SorrowMan (Gothic Poetry, Dark Poems, Dark Gothic Poetry, Suicide Poems, Morbid Poetry, Sad Poems

2005-08-30T18:43:00.000+08:00

DID YOU FEEL ANYTHING?

I HOPE YOU DID.
BUT I KNOW YOU DIDN'T.

_______________________________________

STOP COPYING THE "QIAN ZHE NI DE SHOU"
GOD.
COME UP WITH YOUR OWN IDEAS.
FOR ONCE.
JUST ONCE.

2005-08-28T21:28:00.000+08:00

I HAVE MOPIKO IN MY EYE
OUCH OUCH
: (

ANYWAY
MY DAY WAS BORING AS USUAL
BECAUSE I HAVE BORING PARENTS
AND I GO TO A BORING CHURCH THAT I DONT REALLY LIKE
BECAUSE I DONT LIKE WHAT'S GOING ON
THOUGH I USED TO

2005-08-27T00:05:00.000+08:00

Once again, reality brings me to my knees
fuck it all,
somebody kill me please
Staring down that black hole,
ready to fall.

Dark depressions, evil thoughts,
I've had them all
Today is more depressing than yesterday
It's getting harder for me,
every dayI feel so alone.

Lost in the blinded world of hate,
my poems are all I have made.
Closing my eyes,
trying to escape the pain
But all the anger, pain and hate still remain

I can't help it,
I wish for death
Watch me be free, as I take a final breath

2005-08-24T21:45:00.000+08:00

I HATE YOU
I HATE YOU
I HATE YOU
I HATE YOU
I HATE YOU
I HATE YOU
YOU BALD HEADED
BIG STOMACHED
HAIRY ASSED
OVERGROWN
DISGUSTING
UNREASONABLE
FUGLIATED
STUPID SPERMER

I FUCKING HATE YOU

2005-08-14T21:48:00.000+08:00

Don't you know that
It's you who holds my dreams
and seems to always come back?
How do I live without you?
How could you walk away from this,
just walk away from this again?

2005-08-10T14:37:00.000+08:00

I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO BLOG ABOUT
SO I SHALL JUST BLOG ABOUT NOTHING
SO TECHNICALLY,
I AM BLOGGING
EVEN THOUGH, IN REALITY, I'M NOT.
CAUSE THERE IS NO SUBJECT MATTER.
SO BASICALLY
IT'S THE SAME FUCKING DIFFERENCE
WHEEHEEHEEHAHAH.
HIGH UP IN THE SKY.
SMOKE RISES'
CAUSE IT'S HOT AIR'
WHICH IS WHY SMOKING CANNOT MAKE YOU HIGH
YET IT DOES
CAUSE ITS HOT AIR!!!
OMG.
TWINKLE TWINKLE LITTLE STARS
BAH BAH BLACK SHEEP HAVE YOU ANY WOOL
ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOP
THEY ALL HAVE THE SAME TUNE
I WONDER WHY
YESTERDAY YOU TOLD ME ABOUT THE BLUE BLUE SKY

2005-08-06T13:28:00.000+08:00

Eating my mind away,
from inside out ,
filling my every waking hour,
boredom.
The friend he gave to me ,
a gift, he claimed,
from me to you.
What a precious gift,
which soon,
will come to fill
his every waking hour,
eat him inside out ,
ust like it's eating me.
The day boredom comes,
he'll realise,
only too late,
that he's old and grey.
He owns nothing,
only a daughter lost.

2005-07-27T21:44:00.000+08:00

I DO NOT LIKE LENUS CHOO POH YEE OF 3E2.
OMFG.
I DONT LIKE ANYBODY NOW.
LIKING LENUS CHOO POH YEE IS JUST SO UGLY : )
BAHAHHA.
I'M NOT SAYING SHE'S UGLY. LIKING HER IS.
ACCORDING TO KAI. AND ME.

2005-07-16T15:39:00.000+08:00

i love you'
butyou dont know i do'i am drunk'fuck life'

2005-07-10T00:45:00.000+08:00

there's a limit to every man's patience.
not everything is applicable to you and you only.

2005-06-25T15:49:00.001+08:00

simon is due to come back
from hong kong today.
i have not done my chinese
and my maths and accounts
and geography and science
and tuition and english
homework.

how screwed can one get.

2005-06-19T14:45:00.000+08:00

DIRTY THOUGHT FOR THE DAY

none of us really have our first kiss with us
cause if you think about it
for a majority of us
who were breastfed when young
you know where our first kiss went to
_____________________________

dirty stuff aside,
today was a sick day
woke up with swollen lips.
ahahah.
how luscious eh? =x
lunch was a disgusting blend of
macdonalds fillet burger
plus cold, hard, not salty fries
sick.
and i haven't done my hw
so screwed

2005-06-18T23:05:00.000+08:00

another winter day
has come and gone away
in either Paris or Rome
i wanna go home
and i'm surrounded by
a million people
i still feel all alone
let me go home
i've had my run
i gotta go home
i'll be home tonight
i'm coming back home

i wonder why God had to say,
that whoever commited suicide,
would go to Hades.

2005-06-16T15:02:00.000+08:00

havent' updated in a long time
anyway
i wanna change my blog layout
but have to wait fer val
to return from perth to do fer me
cause lenus choo can only
transfer the picture
she cannot enlarge
shittified.
there
i have updated
all you fuggers happy now?
hear you me

2005-06-10T00:24:00.000+08:00

i am not bung: )
just on a dare

testing

2005-05-22T21:56:00.001+08:00

i think my blog has a big problem
there is no space fer links or posts
shit me.

2005-03-31T00:00:00.000+08:00

whenever you leave,
my heart breaks,
as i watch you walk away.
you'll never know,
my lips are sealed
and so is my heart.

________________

I DONT LIKE MY BLOGSKIN : )
ITS TOO DARK. BLEAGH

2005-03-18T15:18:00.000+08:00

YOUR BUTT'S AS BIG AS DISNEYLAND.

I LIKE BIG BUTTS AND I CANNOT LIE .

SCIENTIST : PUT THE BANANA IN YOUR MOUTH
CHIMP: STICK THE BANANA UP YOUR NOSE

stupidity.

anw. went town yesterday. stupid place to go.
but yarh i went. it was torturous =x
hahas. im becoming a hermit. =D
didnt go fer dance today, ankle's acting up again
lao shi's gonna be so friggin pissed
still havent done all my homework.
im so screwed LAR . whalaos

my hi-card has no value left. wtf : (

2005-03-16T23:58:00.000+08:00

fuck my cousin's father's father's daughter's elder daughter
FUCK YOU

________________________

I want to trip inside your head
Spend the day there...
To hear the things you haven't said
And see what you might see

I want to hear you when you call
Do you feel anything at all?
I want to see your thoughts take shape
And walk right out

God I need your help tonight
Beneath the noise
Below the din
I hear my voice
It's whispering
In science and in medicine
"I was a stranger
You took me in"

____________________________

2005-03-05T22:52:00.000+08:00

I AM BACK

anw.went to plaza with louisa and michelle today, sppsed to go
city hall, but its another LONG STORY. so im gonng go city hall tmr to
get my top and back to plaza fer my bag : )

then ill be broke.shit.

2005-02-28T21:42:00.000+08:00

fuck life and fuck pop ups

2005-02-24T21:54:00.000+08:00

i cant see my blog =x
anw had sports day today
and i feel so mean
dont know why im feeling like tt
but yeah.
hopefully it'll go away by tmr or smth

i have a new horny song : )
candy shop by 50 cent feat. Olivia

____________________________

faith

thanks fer your egg sandwich!! : )
although serene tan took half of it : )
loveyaloads

2005-02-23T22:02:00.000+08:00

be mine?

IM SURE.

2005-02-20T17:28:00.000+08:00

SINGAPORE HAS TOO LITTLE HANDPHONE NUMBERS WHICH ARE ALL ALIKE

anw, supposed to msg someone, but ended up msging someone else , and we both thought we had attitude problems =x
hurhur. long story

anw, woke up at 9 : 15 today. wtf i thought it was eight fifteen, was happily watchin tv when i realized it was 9 :15.
service starts at 9 : 30
took a cab down to church. bloody tired
when i got to church, couldnt spot jem so YEAH LARHS
whalaos, another long story.shittified

my life is full of long stories

went fer some japanese lunch today with mummys side.
eurgh. so disgusting, but my sis found it nice, being the cruel person tt she is.
there was swordfish,tuna,king prawns,and all those other cruel food =x
didnt eat cos it tasted disgusting and cos it was plain cruel .arghh

just stabbed my thumb with my pink pen : (
shit.
the blood is just pouring out.wahahas.so pain

2005-02-18T23:11:00.000+08:00

sick of blogging but nvm : )
todays butter rice was disgusting. half of it tasted like rock
while the other half tasted like mush. eurgh.

gonna fail my physics test like 0/25
cos our dear mr chan didnt tell us that it could be squared =x
so me, not thinking properly, didnt think of squaring anything
arghh
everything was blank
handed in a blank paper and graph paper. wtf
saw dinah crying aft the test which started me crying =x

elf

GIANT LOVES ELF TOO : )
heaven and earth shall meet one day ; )

lindy

YOU TOOK SO BLOODY LONG TO FINd MY BLOG
AFTER ALMOST A DECADE OF FRIENDSHIP!!! sobs : (
the cheena girl does not rawk lar. : )

ji yan

haha. good. monday your my "mambo" partner.
you bring normal skittles i bring sour skittles =]

2005-02-14T20:06:00.000+08:00

valentines day is torturous
almost died
and i forgot to give thingys to so many ppl =x
feel so guilty now
and some ppl give those ultra nice things, as though its my b'day or smth
i feel so mean fer givin them smth so simple compared to theirs

anw, lit test sucked.my answers were so short
when i looked at premas, her whole page was full of small words.
im so screwed
supposed to have "valentines lunch"with jubby, clubby
chubby, lubby, vubby, frubby, sorry if i forgot any other bby
BUT. my valentines lunch was interrupted
by two peoples =x
so i din get to eat my lunch BUT i saved $6 today : )
sppsed to go with *elf hoE to toa payoh
but i din go cos it felt weird going and bcos of one more reason

*elf hoE
sorry k? i was kinda "pangseh" but its seriously weird.
maybe you dont get it, but yarh : )
dun be angry k
it was probably bttr that i din go : )
tell you the other reason why i din wanna go tmr : )

2005-02-12T23:10:00.000+08:00

went town today with louisa and siti
watched constantine
nice show, a lil freaky and shocking
i kept needing to pee
the popcorn was so big =x
aft movie, her cousins wanted to meet her again, so went fer dinner together.
then they went to take neos. noisy people
i can rmb all their names : )
all five of them
not bad aye?
saw those lil people in town everywhere i went : ) [captas? smth like tt lar]
didnt get to do my shopping. only saw one shirt =x

___________________

*elf hoE

haha. sorry fer blocking the tagboard.
im trying to make a long entry to push
the picture downwards : )

* jubby ji yan

haha, let sompete one day lar : )
can we use smarties?
they taste better.
so you can drop art?

2005-02-11T21:14:00.000+08:00

I HAVE BOUGHT MY EMINEM ENCORE :
PLATINUM EDITION

cny sucked. as usual
it kinda sucks every year
but this year was the worst i can imagine
arghh
still have to go fer some SHIT lunch with some shit ppl tmr

looking on the bright side though : )
im goin town tmr with louisa again : )
thnkfully we cleared whatever it was up on the same day
instead of dragging it on
BUT. in the morning, i have to drag my ass all the way to farrer market
where ill probably see an angry bung
an a sleepy senior. arghh

my dear thumpy didnt wait fer me to go fer recess,
which is not the first time ):
i was waiting fer her : )
then me and elf went to her class back door, she walked out the front door with RK
damn : (
so ended up throwing fruit loops ard with ji yan and *elf hoE at the stairs

went towning with claire and lindy today
they aer GOOD shopping partners,seriously
but we have different tastes lar, so it doesnt really work
when they find something which i find nice ugly and vice-versa

retarded quiz : (

2005-02-10T17:50:00.000+08:00

you represent the hard times in life. you have a
hard life yourself and a hidden self many don't
know about.

What part of life do you represent? ( AWESOME anime pics ^_^)
brought to you by

2005-02-10T13:59:00.000+08:00

jubby :

hurhur, thats why we're friends what =D
happy new yr to you too : )
you where got full of crap? its called shy =]
must be proud of your costume yearhs : )
cornyated's a nice corny word okayy =D

elf :

tell giant everything, so you like drinking tea now?
hurhur, giant has big ears, giant shall listen to everything you hafta tell : )

audrey :

aiyah..dun be shy lahs, you think your a pretty baby =D
whalaos, how can you doubt me??
i got go fer makeup lessons ya know, but i din pay attention larhs x)

louisa :

eh i cannot find your tag. sorry : (
but i couldnt find it, i think too many tags then yours just disappeared.
sorry kay : ) tag again leh

2005-02-09T20:01:00.000+08:00

Faith: yea, hes my biggest obsession : ) so are you gonna give him to me ?? =x

Chubby : can....link my fuglypoo ok? : )CHUBBY

Jubby: thts why we're friends. cause we're,ahem, CORNYATED

Clubby : happy[[ : ) i shall go HALOSCAN you. still din get to eat my uflypuff at starfucks : (

Audrey:at least you know depression sucks, told you the chain right? so you dun hafta tell me
to stop cutting : ) i know why you din see my entries lahs, you went to the wrong blog right? not surprised.
HAhaha. why cant karen be a "pretty baby" ? once she goes under my make-up skills she'll be so pretty even I'll fall in love with her =D [are you trying to say your a pretty baby?hmm...? EGO. =D

Elf :*elf, "like, HELLO" to you : ) i nvr said mockingbird was a cheesy,corny song, im saying the stupid one i created was =D you know we both love mr big weenie and his toy soldiers
. earl grey tea? haha, what a CUTESIE and blakcish brown tea with the label on its orange ass =]
its an oxymoron. you dunno what an oxymoron is lahs : )

2005-02-07T23:26:00.000+08:00

karen and audrey :
give you a cheesy cum corny song to cheer you both depressed ppl up okay? : )
loveyoubothlots

Now hush little baby, don't you cry
Everything's gonna be alright
Stiffen that upperlip up little lady,
i told ya im here to hold ya through the times
I know nothin's goin well right now
and we don't know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty babies
But i promise everythin's gon' be alright

2005-02-07T22:54:00.000+08:00

louisa : hurhur nvm lahs its nth : )
thanks fer your gifts, they really cheered me up. but you know what? your choco was
pure choco. so sad : ( haha, thnks anw : )

elf : and HOW are you planning to cheer me up, *ELF? : )
giant can tell elf, but the sound waves might not reach *elf
the only oxymoron is "gigantic elf" all the rest are facts : )

audrey : you god or what?
"you shall stop cutting"
anw. lemme tell you about the chain.
when you cut, i cut , to stop you frm cutting, and when i cut, another one of my friend
will cut. so you should just stop cutting : )

2005-02-05T23:53:00.000+08:00

today was supposed to be a happy day
things nvr turn our the way you want
everyone i love is getting depressed
fuck him

2005-02-05T13:47:00.000+08:00

jubby : hahaha on monday ill CHECK YOU OUT then : )
everyone's bow legged one lahs, just how bow legged you are : )
cant rally tell anyway : )

clubby : can.... you pay fer cab fare lahs : )
ugly puffs will obviously taste... ugly?
if they sell then we CHOP CHOP and share : )

audrey : fucking horner two! =D [perverted boob grabber]

2005-02-04T22:09:00.000+08:00

eunice : I AM PERFECTLY FINE. im so fine and undepressed i
cant ge4t any fucking happier than how i feel
right now. ill be fine lahs : ) two depressed ppl
make one happy person.
like how minus and minus equals plus : )

just had bible study.
there was this question : what do you like about this world?
i had the most simple answer.

anw, mummy saw my cuts =x
i told her my friend scratched me and she believed it.
and eunice wont lend me her penknife anymore : (

2005-02-03T17:21:00.000+08:00

jubby : WHY ON EARTH WOULD I WANNA CHECK YOU OUT?!??

elf : hurhur, i could do all these fer you but prob no one would see you =D

ponned cheena dance today. shit. how long nvr pon already. anw, geog test sucks, cheena test sucks, chem test sucks : ( and my class partner and me are having stupid problems on the same subject . arghh. going into depression.

monday gonna go starfucks with lubby,clubby,and jubby, i think : ) ill miss frubby : )

2005-02-01T22:04:00.000+08:00

todays chinese dance sucked. arghh. but i did some hw though : )

im happy today you know
EXTREMELY HAPPY .i think lahs

2005-02-01T21:59:00.000+08:00

audz : thts a good idea : ) maybe i will =D

thumpy : dun be so egoisitc lahs, thumpy : ) usually frontrunners die in battle : )

abu :abu, did i link your blog directly? so you bored come my blog lahs?! : ( using my blog as a last resort is it?

jubby : be glad tt you have legs can already. but most ppl want skinny legs compared to FAT legs what. everyone has bow-shaped legs lahs, depends on how bow shaped : ) bring foot loops again : )

2005-01-31T21:32:00.000+08:00

jubby:

aiya.... if you have skinny legs and both you and the world know it then why not just SHOW IT OFF? so many ppl want skinny legs ya know. like eileen goh my lover! : ) nvr bring honeystars today lehss. : (

audz:

which person actually studies fer cheena test? =x
veggie SUCKS. arghh. louisa eats enough veggie fer both she and me : )
its not pigeon, its pigeon SOUP : )

faith:

hey girlie: ) you sure you okay yearhs? cos im fine already. almost, anyw. : )
hah gd luck selling the rest : )

everyone :

im gonna change my blog add on the 15 of feb to uglypuff.blogspot.com, if possible, either ways, im just gonna change blogname : ) so if youve read this, tell me : )

2005-01-31T19:00:00.000+08:00

such a small shitty thing and she made it sound so big : )

anw, gonna flunk my cheena test, cos i didnt do almost the whole paper, only did...multiple choice, which i eenie-meenie-mini-moed. thru and two questions frm compre. im so screwed =x

bought some perfume fer my murmmie fer her birthday. there goes my plan fer saving money this week : ( hahas, anyways, louisa said it had an indian smell =x but i like it though : ) BUT its twenty shitty bucks. arghh.

just gave my murmmie the present : )

<>

2005-01-30T20:35:00.000+08:00
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you

2005-01-30T16:25:00.000+08:00
ji yan : JUBBY!!! haha, can be fugly poo also, but dun wanna make ANOTHER email : )
hahas, skirts are bttr thn jeans : )fer me larhs, i look like crap in jeans =x
bring honey stars!=D
when can i see you wear a SKIRT? : )

clubby : im not vague lorhs. : )you know aft every entry at the bottom there'll be smth like
"posted by______ on ___date."? yeah. the that one. how to change the name at the
bottom of every entry?
[am i still being too vague?] = 0
you havent answered my BO question >=)
eh nvm about the question i asked you. its answered: ) the blog entry nonsense. just answer my bo question . ahaha.

thumpy:dun be ego lahs thumpy : ) look on the bright side: )
your surrounded by everyone.aint tt good?
there was this model on telly called serene tan on some shitty show on the bus =D

2005-01-29T14:17:00.000+08:00
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